Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Cynicism: The Latest Fashion Accessory

I haven't really had time to blog this week, but I was looking through some of my old MySpace blogs and found this little ditty. It's raw. It's harsh. But it's me. It's the way I felt then and the way I still feel today.

First of all, I have no idea how to put into words exactly what I want to say. Secondly, I can't believe that I am about to post a blog about this.

I know that to many of you I have said things such as, " I don't want to date again. I'm not ready to date again" or my personal favorite "all men are idiots", but the truth is I really do want to try again. Hi there Masochist, I have missed you oh so very much! The problem is that no one wants to date me.

In the past month I have had friends and co-workers who have wanted to set me up. Timidly, I told them they could pass along my e-mail or cell phone number. I have talked to four different guys, three of which I really enjoyed talking to. Then of course comes the "Hey e-mail me a picture" moment that I HATE. So three times I e-mailed my picture. Once, I never heard back from the guy and twice I heard varying versions of " I don't think you are my type."

I should be used to it by now. I grew up dealing with it my entire life. No one wants to be around the girl with the ugly smile.

Yes, I have a weight problem, that one is my fault. The teeth, well god did that. I had no control.

I know most of you are thinking that I should just have it fixed but I can't afford it. Now that I am older it's just going to cost more than if my parents had had it done.

In the society we live today no one cares about how good of a person you are. Today people care about how stick thin you are, the amount of money you have, and the type of car you drive. How cynical have we become?

1 comment:

  1. well i dont think that and u should know it. i like th e way u smile and guess what i dont like the sticks on tv i like a woman with curves.